I don't even know who you can try to get help from anymore. Doctors are drug dealers, I went to my doctors office and within 5min of talking to him the session was over and I walked out with some pills that I look up online and they basically make you kill yourself. Paxil. what good is this going to do me? I'm already thinking about it and now they are giving me meds to follow through with it. Can't go to family, they all have their own problems and I don't want to burden them with mine. So I guess I go online to an off topic forum to tell the internet and see if they will even listen, doubtful.
There are other services available that won't try to push drugs onto you.
Are you US based?
Just talking to someone who cares can really help. It is easy to get yourself into position where you don't see it getting better - but it will!
Focus your energy on something you care about. Bitcoin?
But who will get involved with someone that has these issues, and we start all over.
On the internet, nobody knows you're a dog! Or have issues like you or I and everyone else does...
I see Bitcoin as a great opportunity... if you put your mind to it.
PM me if you want to chat.
I appreciate the words but its not just a bad day, I feel like its a bad life. I've struggled my whole life and I just don't know how much I can fight it anymore. It leaves me helpless in a way. I've had the suit and tie job and I wasn't happy. I've lived in Philadelphia on the streets just about and I wasn't happy. I feel like no matter what I will never be happy.
Obviously there are good moments but overall I don't see the point.
I don't know how to put it in words how exactly I feel and it's harder than just talking to someone that cares. I feel like I am putting more problems on them. It's never the are you okay talk, it always brings more to the table. The only person that I feel truly cares is my mother. My father was murdered when I was young and the rest of my family is nothing like me. So I don't go to her with majority of issues because she struggles to and doesn't need extra bullshit on her mind.
Sorry this is all over the place, my minds racing and I don't know where I'm going with it all.