i do not want that to remember the experience of that i gambling , i got out in casino without money in my pocket i ride car taxi then i pay in my house,
i know why i can't control myself at that time, i told myself i never go back in gambling, the lesson is gambling is very risky paly gamble for fun not to earn profits, because that day i want to earn big money which not good idea.
I personally have so many bad experience and worst moment in gambling history. Actually i am playing gambling continuously for most than 20 years, therefore i experience so many worst moment losing a lot of money in one time which i also do not want to remember again and again.
Wow I am amazed that after all the losses you had you still can managed to go on a day and gamble still, maybe you enjoy gambling so much that sometimes you forget how you much money you are losing in a day because me when I had a big loss in gambling I immediately decide to stop and look for another outlet to enjoy my spare time. I cannot manage to see my money vanish like that.