She cant allow or disallow it because god is a figment of your imagination. She cant destroy me because she only lives in the mind of you, David Koresh, and millions of other nutters.
She has turned someone into rock salt, caused a flood that killed almost everyone, killed children, killed women, created plagues that terrorized her creations and generally shown contempt for something she created.
There you go again, setting yourself up as god by determining things that you know you don't really know are true or not. And all because you want to be free to destroy yourself without destroying yourself.
God saved us once, through Jesus. He isn't here to be your slave forever.
