I think Ive accepted my loss and ready to move past.
Im certainly not going to be chasing this loss, or gambling for money again. Any gamble like that is going to be things like poker night with my friends, with a $20 buy in.
The only thing thats slightly bugging me, especially after the crypto crash, is... do I have enough money? Is $1.5m good enough? I know that amount of wealth puts me at the 10% in the US, and probably the top 1% for someone in my 20s, but god... I was in the 1% once, and I want to be there again.
Maybe I need some perspective. Idk. Once you go from spend money, ya have practically infinite money (I gave away more than 100 BTC to family [good reason, dont regret it one bit] and an ex [fuck I was dumb ]), to shit, money is finite and you only have a million and change... its an unpleasant realization but I think Im missing perspective there.
That and whatnot. Im going to continue what has worked out well for me, and what has allowed me to build this wealth that I had. Along with time and hopefully another crypto rally, Ill be the 1% again. Its only $10 million.
But I will make it there. Through hard work, savings, and smart investments. Never gambling.

glad you accepted the loss mate but hope you learned the lesson , it's not about not gambling in the future but it's about self control
you seriously need to learn self control cause you didn't lose that amount of money because of gambling but because lack of self control
we can all agree that gambling will only end up with loss but you ended up chasing small loss with big capital and to be honest this is what you should work on cause this may affect your future investments in the coming days
always measure the risk/reward and take time to think about it , cause you may end up doing the same thing with investments as well ( remember there is really a tiny line between gambling and investing )
you still have a lot of money so personally wouldn't worry if I was you , you can easily make it back within two years