I think Ive accepted my loss and ready to move past.
Im certainly not going to be chasing this loss, or gambling for money again. Any gamble like that is going to be things like poker night with my friends, with a $20 buy in.
The only thing thats slightly bugging me, especially after the crypto crash, is... do I have enough money? Is $1.5m good enough? I know that amount of wealth puts me at the 10% in the US, and probably the top 1% for someone in my 20s, but god... I was in the 1% once, and I want to be there again.
Maybe I need some perspective. Idk. Once you go from spend money, ya have practically infinite money (I gave away more than 100 BTC to family [good reason, dont regret it one bit] and an ex [fuck I was dumb ]), to shit, money is finite and you only have a million and change... its an unpleasant realization but I think Im missing perspective there.
That and whatnot. Im going to continue what has worked out well for me, and what has allowed me to build this wealth that I had. Along with time and hopefully another crypto rally, Ill be the 1% again. Its only $10 million.
But I will make it there. Through hard work, savings, and smart investments. Never gambling.

After reading the OP and especially about that you were having thoughts of going all in to win it back, I was really relieved seeing this post. I just checked your stats and indeed you have never made a single roll since than. Good job!
As for your thoughts on do you have enough money, I'd say most of us here would be more than happy to have 10% of that what you have. Don't think of making more money, but rather think of studying more and gaining more knowledge. Invest in your education and you will never regret it since the state of happiness most of us are trying to achieve depends on the level of your education and not on the amount of money you have.