On your suicide thoughts; http://www.gabrielhummel.com/2011/03/11/feeling-suicidal-the-world-is-your-oyster/ do whatever the fuck you want wherever the fuck you want 
Generally, I think seriously depressed people lose the will to do anything, so I don't know where they'll get the motivation to go crazy and yolo themselves.
Yeah there's 0 motivation even sex. That's why a line of coke will give you a moment of motivation