That's alright, at least you did not ended up marrying that girl because she is not right for you, if she's after your money then forget her.

This is a bad decision gambling can't help up solve our depression and it will make things more complicated and worst. This 's the result of thinking under your emotion we always tend to do something out of our control, which is bad.

Well, We all have our own stories of failure, this is very common since we are all human and if you make mistakes you have to bounce back after that. I just hope that you already learned your lesson and you must apply the things that you've learned from this bad experience and use this as your motivation to reach your goal this time. This pandemic is a test of our character, be more responsible and don't lose your track in this market.