Above all you have listed, there is no way for you to surrender. Just think about the street children, they have no foods & clothes, unsustainable life, abandoned by parents and have no permanent shelter. I feel you buddy but we are now in pandemic. We can`t avoid this things will happen to us. We are all amidst of negative situation in life. Just to be thankful that you are breathing because a lot of people are dying but us? We are still alive and kicking.

Just focus on your goals and don`t mind that girl. I believe that there is no word FOREVER.
If you are depress, breath for a little while and imagine how beautiful it was when you are on top seeing your past.

Be positive bud!