Here is how 2020 went for me : 
January ... lost my tooth went to dentist ,she should have fix it ,payed money still didn't heard from her not even now
February... pandemic started
March ... lost my job
April ... Girlfriend dumped me for good do to fact i am poor and she was only interested in money
May - June ... Lost all my savings at the casinos after lockdown do to fact i entered a depression
It must be a dream ,it's not real ! nothing makes sense anymore ...
F money ,F power ,F fame ,F all materialistic stuff ... i am going back to read the Holy Book as i did something wrong ... and i don't understand what i did ...
You have to blame no one,or nothing here because all of those happens to you are your own mistakes.January ... lost my tooth went to dentist ,she should have fix it ,payed money still didn't heard from her not even now
February... pandemic started
March ... lost my job
April ... Girlfriend dumped me for good do to fact i am poor and she was only interested in money
May - June ... Lost all my savings at the casinos after lockdown do to fact i entered a depression
It must be a dream ,it's not real ! nothing makes sense anymore ...
F money ,F power ,F fame ,F all materialistic stuff ... i am going back to read the Holy Book as i did something wrong ... and i don't understand what i did ...
you pay dentist in advance when you can pay them upfront when the fixing happen.
you lost my Job because you are not competent in the position.
You choose stupid girlfriend ,Imagine you have been with Her bnot knowing the attitude and character?
You gambled on your Own foolishness and don't blame your depression .