Calm your ass and get yourself together. Everyone has down moments in their life. The success of a person just depends on how he/she gets outside the shithole and continue fighting.

The most valuable asset you have or had is/was Time and not the money you think you have lost. Imagine this, since 2014, you have been wasting time on those Pay Per Install campaigns which earned you peanuts and now you are stuck. Since you seem to be some leaning towards discovering bugs and vulnerabilities. If only you had used that time and data plans to learn programming or coding. You would be miles far right now.

There so many crypto projects looking for developers, web designers or even pay handsomely for bug bounties, and no I don't recommend you to go into that bad practice of black hat hacking or whatever. Karma will always follow you.
It's never too late to learn something and get your life in order. Knowledge is power.

Each one of us here has had challenges at one point in life. It's what makes us human. Otherwise, do you think it's cool turning into someone evil every time you are faced with a challenge? I don't think so.

You are already here and you can market yourself, sell some service to the people or do some some remote jobs. Also other options is to work as community managers on telegram and find them on altcoin section or maybe I'm service section. And many more just open up your us for the opportunities as well trust yourself that you can do the job correctly if you are been hired.

Haven your money lost and get broke isn't a yardstick to get involve into illegal activities as mentioned. Life itself isn't balance dude, and we should take the right steps in fighting our ways through the hard times(we all went through this). We were once broke, even the rich also get broke too, but getting the right source out of the shit is the best strategy for mankind, so, don't be depress, shake it off because it doesn't ends well.

Nothing works wonders like a focus mind dude, getting the needed focus should be the right option for you than doing otherwise. As others have encouraged, kindly get yourself together and make positive move towards achieving your goals. Being IT base individual, you're half succeed in the world of crypto, get involve into a good crypto project to have your finance life back on track. Wish you good luck!.