Last not least: I'd honestly like to support my country, in means of giving back, because i am living off health insurance because of a memory condition that made me an underachiever in my well paid job which i did exceptionally well.
I find the juxtaposition of the idea of "underachiever' and "doing it well" to be confusing.
You mean that you were good at under achieving or you were good at your job or some other thing that I am not quite understanding?
Oh, yeah. That didn't make much sense there, so here's a clarification:
I meant i did my job (really) well, before i got sick, which made me an underachiever.
I was able to work about an hour on something i could not finish and it made me stressed out and feel exhausted for at least the rest of the day.