How do I get over the countless failures? I’ve been chasing the $1,000,000 dream for years.
Well, you just don't need to go all in the next time you turn your profit into a huge one. The only one who can solve your problem is yourself but it doesn't just take overnight to get over with it, you need patience to yourself as well. I think you need a financial advisor if you still can't solve your problem, don't keep it all to yoursel, the thing with those who has problems is that they know it but they aren't seeking help to anyone, especially an expert.
Yep, what killed the ops is his inability to pull out when he already turned his deposits into x10 amount, maybe he got carried away with the excitement that he forget the risk associated with gambling and how tricky it can be especially when you win the house and at a high rate, ops made a very big mistake and hope he will learn from the various suggestions and advise that we have offered him here in the thread because his actionable patter of play detected a lot of symptom of addiction and emotional dependence.