Your problem is NOT the money, maybe not the greed for money, not the gambling.
I’m not exactly sure where to begin
Let's begin... I would like the answers of the following.
1. Are you honest to yourself? This honesty is not to showing-off to others, not to keep promise to others none of it that we usually have in mind when someone ask about it. I am asking about the honestly that you honor towards yourself. Remember you have two you, everyone have it. It's the you that you show to others and the other you that answers to "your" you.
2. Are all these gambling you do online or there are physical casino/betting shops around you and you are regular there?
3a. Do you live with your family or your own?
3b. If you live with your family then who have control over you? I mean when I was young I was always scared of my dad, there were many things I have not done because I was scared if he knew it then I will be in big trouble. Do you have such person in family? Do they know how to read and write English to communicate internationally? Share me in details (You can private message me).
4. Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend and do you love truly love them?
I need to know the answer of these. Especially
the first one is very important to know to continue conversation with you. You don't need to answer publicly if you are not comfortable, you can always choose to send me DM on telegram or PM me.
PS: There are no hurry, take your time. In the mean time do that was suggested by Timelord2067
Firstly:
Log out of the Forum and shut your PC down. Go outside (leaving your phone behind). Look across the street for a few minutes. Walk to the end of the street and back. When you return to your starting point, turn around and take a good, long, hard look down the street. Is there anything you noticed today that you haven't noticed before?
Turn around and walk the opposite way to the end of the street. Now look back towards your starting point. How many mental photographs have you just taken? (Five?) Recall those images in your mind.
Now go for a random walk in your neighbourhood taking streets you wouldn't ordinarily go along) stopping at the same number of places as your mental photographs in you home street. (Do you have a dozen mental photographs?)
Repeate daily.