I can really relate to your situation, as I faced a similar struggle in the last month. Like you where I found myself in a dark place after losing a significant important amount of money to gambling while also dealing with debts owed to friends and on Bitcointalk. The strong pressure led me to thoughts of suicide and depression at the moment and it felt like there was no way out.
The only place I felt comfortable sharing my struggles initially was on Bitcointalk, and here is the thread where I opened up:
The harsh reality of GxSTxVHowever, I want to assure you that healing and recovery are possible. I shared again my journey toward rebuilding my life finding hope and working on myself in this thread:
Recovery journey from gambling addiction.Please know that you are not alone in this, and it’s okay to seek help and lean on others. Sharing your story is a brave first step in my opinion and also experience. Feel free to reach out if you need someone to talk to or if I can help in any way.
Damn bro, read your story. Thank you for taking the time to reply to my post. An update, I have talked to my family about the loss, yeah I could see the disappointment in their faces but now it has become like a joke they tease me with in good spirit trying to make me feel better, and I have been getting better. My mind is clearer now, it is what it is and I have accepted what happened..
Also my mother had some health issues that she has thankfully overcome, made me realise that money is in reality unworthy of my attention and I would gladly burn it all away in exchange for more valuable things like the health and wellbeing of my family.
My biggest loss is not the money, but the time I wasted chasing it, which is the most valuable thing in the world. Going to shift my focus into living life and spending more time with my family cause thats what really matters.