I never counted, but I think I have much bigger losses than gains. It is not hard to conclude that, but the thing is I never had big expectations of gambling. Sometimes I try out the site I find on forum and sometimes I just play on sites I already tried.
I mostly set a limited budget that I am willing to gamble and then count the losses in the end. I don't gamble with expectations to earn money.
not only you who are in that position, I also feel the same thing as you experience. honestly when I first got to know gambling I was consumed with the assumption of winning big and only winning at the beginning. and for a long time betting money lost without control but I realized that. making gambling not a place to find money but just entertainment and winning is just a bonus that I don't expect now. it is indeed difficult to conclude something that has made us destroyed
But it is very curious how much time spent in the game makes the player gradually move from the realization that this is all just a game, entertainment, and not just waiting for a big win. In addition, I think that almost all beginner players began their game in about the same way in the hope of winning. But gradually, time after time, round after round, the game turned into a habit and began to bring pleasure. I think that of course for different people with different characters and psychological profiles this time is still not less than about six months. And for some it can also be more than a year.