Quote from: Matthew N. Wright on December 19, 2011, 01:49:19 AM

Quote from: repentance on December 19, 2011, 01:09:53 AM

Quote from: Matthew N. Wright on December 18, 2011, 06:58:26 AM

We did have a full 3 weeks to record but my mom thought it was cool to die of cancer 2 weeks ago and I just got back from the US.

I'm sorry to hear that Matthew.

I appreciate that. On another note, I had never had a close family member die before, much less of cancer, and I guess I had the idea that it would be like a movie-- either painless and instant, or Godfather "last words" style. I had no idea that cancer basically makes you go senile right before you die, causing you to freak out for a day saying things you've never said, then go open-eye comatose for another day, finally becoming unresponsive until your breathing stops.

My right brain and left brain were both soaking the thing in. Really weird experience. Everyone I talked to after the fact pretty much said that's how their relative/friend went as well. Makes me horrified of cancer even more so.

We weren't that close or anything so I guess I am handling it much better than my oldest sister who keeps shouting it's 'her fault' and something about being 'too late', but one thing is for sure-- I wouldn't even want my enemies to have to live with the pain and suffering she was going through. I am happy she passed quickly and in her sleep (even if her sleep was drug induced).

The last family member I had die of cancer was my grandmother when I was about 6.
She was dying of lung cancer.
The one bit of solace I get from not being able to be with her during her last days was that she, in vain, repeatedly requested I be let in to see her.
I was really close to her as a child, but now I can hardly remember her.
I feel your pain and hope you get though this as quickly as possible.