I apologize for my sarcasm sometimes, but I'm tiread of all the fud and false accusations.
No issues dude, you are young and you have been under so much pressure, so its understandable. The good part is YOU ARE STILL HERE and you are still trying. A lot of people run for cover when they are under the pump, and you are showing to the community that you are here to stay. Thats strength of character right there.
Do you think you would need a bit of help with communication? Help put together a bit more structure in how you communicate to the rest of us, both long term and short term? Does not have to be immediate, but maybe later as well. Let us know what you think?
I could have PM-ed you but I am going to keep this public to build faith in the community.