My legacy account is broken for some reason such that I can't quote quotes anymore. But^
Word around the campfire is that David Foster Wallace didn't hang himself on account of his depression returning so much as he did because he was in severe protracted post acute withdrawal from an old school MAO-I called Nardil. Similarly, William Styron, author of Sophie's Choice, attributes his late onset mental illness to a prescription for Halcion, a particularly ferocious medicine in the benzodiazepine family. Robin Williams was thought to be hallucinating and out of his mind with DAWS, dopamine agonist withdrawal syndrome, at the time of his death. Chris Cornell was high on Ativan. Drugs are drugs. They worked for me for years. By 'worked' I mean I was functional. But drugs are probably bad. IDK. Booze works for some people but it destroys some of other people. I'm totally sober and no longer functional. Tanstaafl? I was having a lot of fun at the time. In hindsight, being drugged all my life probably didn't do me any favors. But hindsight is 20/20. I seem to remember being a glum chap before medicine. Then I went on to have a solid creative life. Now I'm in withdrawal and my brain is broken in every possible direction but up. I'd like to make a sweeping judgment about it. But I can't. I just don't know.