This was my 4th or 5th suicide attempt in 6 years. I ODed on some bathsalts and benzo's. The cops actually came in my home and I showed them every legal bath salt that could kill me, and they didn't even take it with them lmao. They even asked me if I was a danger to other people and I answered that if I can withstand 6 years of torture without hurting anyone do you rwally think i pose a threat? Got some severe memory loss, but had to kill my memory with NMDA receptor antagonists anyway to survive the trauma of the camp they put me in and tortured me in years ago. And even while memory has been wiped for the last week they still try and trigger me. This is called synchronisation. Basicly anything I write on my phone or pc that can trigger an emotional response/trauma conditioning they will apply a noise campaign. Disconnect my chromecast streaming horror movies at certain points "help, I am dying". At this point you should understand that I do not care about dying l.o.l. I have basicly been living in the stanford prison experiment. They give control to ordinary people. And these people turn out to be complete psychopaths.