Did I use the word liar any where? You are a doctor and should understand what sort of effects 4 very powerful antibiotics can have (so liver toxic that significant number of patients can't continue them and I already had liver disease before I started treatment), as well as my repeated statements (and also private ones) that I couldn't even eat without urinating out of my ass (even before I started the antibiotics and I rushed the treatment because my health was failing so precipitously and acutely on return from Singapore). I told you in private as well repeated it in public that my cognitive state is highly diminished. Although I am a beast of a fighter in terms of managing to do athletics even while I am so ill that you admitted to me you can't do while healthy, the fact is I've probably been fighting active, disseminated Tuberculosis for several years! Years! My body is really messed up and curing this is a major risk.

Of course I didn't read all of your post, nor read any of it with a fine tooth comb. I told you I don't have enough energy. I responded to few small portions that I read. I may become energized for some moments I am not (as I am now) by being provoked, but the vast majority of the time I am not in good condition right now. I did have some burst of mild energy a few days ago and perhaps I get a few hours every other day or so, where I feel mostly awake.


I am making numerous errors like that that I have to correct when I reread two and three times, because that is the state of my cognition right now. My brain is semi-conscious, and I hear in my head not what I am typing.

Please note the edit:


To reiterate, I sometimes or often find religious and leftist (social activist) zealots to be demeaning with a superior holier than thou attitude, and thus I tend to feel I should react strongly as well, but as I said, I am trying to back off from such personalization. I realize by allowing myself to feel provoked, I am probably interfering with my own rationality (realize that when this discussion started, I was fighting for my life healthwise as I was in a rapidly deteriorating health episode and was afraid I was going to be admitted to ER again thus I was in a fighting mode and in an agggresively defensive posture with raised cortisol levels, etc). Also I don't want to insinuate you are a zealot. As I said earlier, I am lacking an appropriate word to use in your case, and besides I don't want to be judging or analyzing you at all. I'd rather we just talk about facts.


Edit: as I said I am happy for you that you have such a great wife who is a match for you. And also congrats on 4 offspring. Forgot to make it clear that I am happy for your successes.