Hi everyone. This might look strange, but I have no choice but to try.
Right after university, I started a business with a friend, and everything was going pretty well. But periodically, I would fall into episodes of extreme apathy. In 2016, I got into crypto during the bull run from 2016–2017, and I turned 1 BTC into 5 BTC. Bitcoin went from $1,000 to $20,000, so I left 100k $ in altcoins, believing in their bright future.
In 2019, during another depressive episode, I sold my share to my partner at a low price — he gladly took the opportunity and forgot about me. For 1.5 years, I hardly left my house. I had constant suicidal thoughts. I tried launching new projects, but I was out of energy to grow it. My $100k in crypto, only $15k remained. I tried learning how to trade, but it’s extremely hard to do so in that mental state.
Eventually, after 1.5 years, I was left with just $1,000 in cash, then I met my girlfriend,I have to leave rented flat and my 15k were down to just $100. I decided this would be my last attempt — those $100 would be my final shot at trading. As luck would have it, the market started rising, and through active trading, I grew that $100 into $300,000.
But despite having money in my account, I still struggled with severe psychological issues and constantly wished I wouldn’t wake up the next day. I visited psychologists, but nothing helped.
In the end, I lost all the money again and fell into debt. One day, I realized that either I’d hang myself tomorrow or go see a psychiatrist. I chose the latter. A good specialist diagnosed my condition, prescribed medication, and antidepressants quite literally saved my life.
Now I’m 35, and I have a daughter who is three months old. I’ve reflected deeply on my path. The problem is, due to my debts, I could lose my apartment. While I can gradually pay off other obligations, the mortgage doesn’t allow for that. And so I’m writing this to ask for help — if anyone wants to offer support, I’d be grateful. That’s why I said this looks strange. But I have no other choice.
Anyway, maybe this will all get deleted. I’ll leave my crypto adresses in case someone wants to help. I don't need a lot, just 20k $. When everything was pretty good I did. Dispite plenty of shit in the world people are are capable of kindness.
At the end, I want to say a few words from my journey. Take care of your mental health. First and foremost, take care of yourself and your family — only when this level is properly taken care of should you move on to the next circle of people close to you.
I gave a lot to others because I believed that if I had the ability to earn, I couldn't help but share that prosperity. But in the end, I totally neglected myself — and this is where it led me.
I’ll understand if this post doesn’t resonate with anyone. Either way, for me, this is inner growth. I’m just some guy from the internet, but even so, it’s still hard for me to ask for help.
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